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posted : Tuesday, May 29, 2012
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You're right..
There wasn't and will never be anyone who will love me like You do.
That is why I should always always always believe that whenever a door closes in my life, I am one step nearer to the right one.

Temptation is a real struggle,
that's why you when you meet it,
you just need to put on your best fist and punch temptation in the face
as many times as you need to bring it down.
Then you drag your half eaten, half battered body on and search for, Time,
your best bet, your best friend forward.

I don't know what is it that I have not achieved in this life that caused me to still be here,
but I guess I just gotta keep trying.
I promise to try my best not to linger around the wrong doorways for too long and get distracted,
but I need to be reminded.
Someone once told me life and relationships are like holidays.
You meet someone, you come into a great intersection in life, and that it seems like the best holiday you ever had,
You get to stay in a nice hotel,
you have the best service you never experienced before,
and everything is just top notched and perfect..
But we often can't see this problem,
we often define perfect with our own measurements.
Sometimes, what seemed perfect in that moment would only stay in that moment,
and like all holidays, it has to come to an end.
Life and wrong relationships are like that,
they are what you never knew at that time of, as a passing phase.
You give your heart and sell your soul for that one moment,
only to realize it is not your final destination.
Life and relationships are similar,
they both have a final stop,
we just need to place trust in a God that will not allow us to be given anything less to first,
by keeping focus on Him,
everything will eventually work out for good,
and we know that the final stop we come to
will be the one we were rightfully meant for...

This summer holiday's love has to come to an end,
and that is where my new phase has to begin.
New doors will open,
and that is where my right stop shall be...

No one will love me like You,
No one will save me like You did,
therefore it is also true that no one find the best things for me like You eventually would.
I believe in You,
no matter how messed up things get, and things have gotten, You will make a way for me.

My God will make a way for me (:

I am confused as to what I have to do,
but I am convinced You will lead me to the way everlasting and deliver me gently from this.
<3

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posted : Sunday, May 20, 2012
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Hello late night hour, time to blog again for some inexplicable reason.
Listening to All My Heart by Sleeping with sirens.
Never heard before righttttttt
Yeah, cuz i am too cool for modern music xD
Kidding lah. Before my genius cousin (the same who taught/loan me his guitar) introduced to me, I never knew squat of this band before.
Anyways, I think it is a hard rock hard core band, only this song is soft and subtle. :D
I WILL MASTER IT ONE DAY.
After my hands conquer the guitar.
MUHAHA. :D

22nd and 24th is drawing near.
My grad day and grad night specifically.
Wonder what I even look forward to to this day.
Feelings to expect would include bittersweetness, awkward hellos, awkward goodbyes, more awkwardness, genuinely touching goodbyes, and occasional laughter before it all dies down and we make a beeline back to our lives again.

I don't even wanna start on grad night man,
I mean sure i look forward to meeting those i would not miss for the world and perhaps getting crazy tipsy again (hopefully not, but im totally useless with alcohol)
Is it gonna be like secondary school prom again?
Where somehow or another,
things don't click and it is just another place where i never felt i belonged to.
exactly how Taylor Swift described it in Enchanted,
"Shifting eyes and vacancy.."
SIGH.
I am not a fan of stiff moments and pauses.
Just yesterday, Jean Tan (I THINK!) came to our church and sang a couple of songs from her album,
her voice was so mesmerizing.
I was pleasantly surprised when she started singing Christina Perri's "A Thousand Years" and Bob Dylon's "Make You Feel My Love"
LOL, first time anyone ever played a non christian song during service, but she cleverly referred to God with these intimate expressions of love in the lyrics.
I think it is really sweet :')

OMG,
And I sold Joanne Peh popcorn today!
HAHA, I know i posted on fb alr and im not a huge fan, which explains why i didn't charge forward for a photo, BUT I JUST HAD TO SAY IT AGAIN xD

Also, this week I wanna thank God for blessing me with a really understanding and loving bunch of colleagues.
So pleasantly surprised to have their assurance, comfort and PROTECTION(in a way! HEH) when I faced backlash on some things by the same annoying dude.
Thanks for making things easier and making it harder for me at the same time,
harder to leave Garretts :'(
OMG, I love my colleagues man.
Unlike other outlets, my supervisor is really cool and doesn't report bad shit about us during meetings.
LOVE YOU SAN BA! <3
I'm so gonna miss the part time monkey also :(
as well as Yi Ting when she leaves on 7 June :((
HUR.
HURHUR.
NOBODY TO ENTERTAIN ME ALR :(
I'll pray for a nice new part timer!
Hopefully they will be able to fill these guys' shoes and be entertaining enough :(
SAD SIA

OKAY.
What a sad post.
Abrupt end, goodbye.

:(

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posted : Saturday, May 19, 2012
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My fears,
everyday, every waking moment, every sleeping moment,
every SINGLE scenario, every imagination.

I always want to come off better, the best.
I don't understand.
Why do I always want to win?
:(


But still God says I am good enough..
Why??

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posted : Wednesday, May 16, 2012
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JOKES ASIDE.
ASS INSIDE.
Haha, just kidding. Hello mid May! :D

Newbie in the house learning guitar with my cousin's old bulky nice old wood smelling guitar.
Cool right?
Not until frustration gets to you when you realize your hands just cannot stretch long enough to play that decent chord.

Work has been alright.
Minus the fact of me wearing an ugly uniform.
Not that I wanna insult the person who designed it,
but cmon, my operations manager laughed in my face and say that I look lika cleaner in it.
PIANGS. Garretts why you so stingy.
Please rethink on designing the outward appearance of your friendly and lovable service staff.
I mean look at all the yogurt and ice cream places,
they don't make their service crew look like aunties and carwash uncles.
AND IT HELPS TO LOOK ATTRACTIVE!

Also, there was a recent change in management cos my supervisor got relocated/reservice.
Anyway not that I don't like the current team or my current supervisor, who is totally an adorable SANBA,
but i just don't fancy the bossy vibe from someone else....

I like my new colleague Yi Ting, finally someone to yabber jabber in mandarin and make the monkey lonely!!
They're forever yabbering in malay lor, and I will be fiddling with something while silently cursing them for leaving me out. HAHA KIDDINGGGS :D

Yah, anw, to put it quite bluntly,
not that i don't care about the sales.
I mean okay, if we hit it, and all of you guys, full timers, get your bonuses like the previous time, it is good, i am really happy for you guys! REALLY TRULY BABIES <3
Also i don't care if i don't get a share in the reward,
basically cos i know im just a part timer and you guys deserve it way much more for all your hard work and longer hours.
BUT
don't take the sales tally and wave it in front of me and ask me WHAT HAPPEN TO THE SALES SANDRA??
The shit i know ah?
Ask yourself lah.
And instead of boasting to me on how you can clean 3 bins in 45 minutes,
maybe you would like to take 15 minutes to help me clean one of the bins when you're proudly done with the kitchen so that this poor small girl won't have to end up cleaning TWO.

Piangs. Before this change right, whenever there is closing shift with any other awesome people, i won't ever never have to clean 2 bins.
And the best part is they don't brag on my slow movements cos they know im too small in size to clean it fast.
I don't mind cleaning one more bin, cos i know the other person in the front has to tally the accounts.
BUT, just don't boast and call me slow when you're not being very helpful yourself.

Anw, I guess i dare to voice all these out cos
1. No one is probably reading this
2. I have a feeling imma get buanged soon anw/quitting soon
3. Im just a part timer who sees myself in no potential to become the ultimate popcorn specialist/manager

I really enjoyed work today.
Not just cos it was a 5 hour shift only, but becos of the awesome company.
I like laughing alot with them.
I just lose my patience very easily with unhelpful critical people.
And i know my face shows it, LOL.
Right, I needa work on that.
And be able to keep a default little miss nice face to customers who think they rule my world.

<3

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posted : Tuesday, May 15, 2012
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posted : Friday, May 11, 2012
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I wanted to say this some time ago, every time you come around,
but don't pretend to act like you care when you're already on your way to snogging someone else.

Thanks.
The last thing I need to remember about you is your pretense and superb ability to perform in front of others.
I would know,
I once believed every single bit of it.

I need to believe in honesty.
Therefore I need to see it.
Not actions that depict otherwise.

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posted : Saturday, May 05, 2012
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Just got my pay cheque.
I can't wait to bank in and spend.
Hehe. But i think i shouldn't spend too much online cos I just might to heading to HK in June, if my friends are still cool with it.



I know this perfume out for some time already but i haven't got to see it around in Singapore leh WHYYY??!
Hehe. I am enchanted man, cos it is host by my favourite taylor swift song!
But I'm not sure if it smells enchanting or not hmm..
Quite interesting anyway I guess!

Gonna have 3 dinners for my twentyfirst with loved ones.
With my friends prolly drinking and something,
I dunno lol.
Not very good at organizing stuff, esp when it is to celebrate myself.

Fat die me ah for the month of June!



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